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Disappearance

by Larry Hirshberg

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Sara Fleischman
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Sara Fleischman I love this album because it reminds me of Missoula, of a simpler time when I was in my 20's. Back when I never thought I would have a soul-sucking corporate gig and live in suburbia, when I denounced minivans and vowed to never own one. Little did I know that as I neared 40 my life would send me hurtling towards yuppieville. This album takes me back to those endless summers, bar hopping, tubing down the Blackfoot and fly fishing like I was Norman Maclean.
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SOMETHING TOOK THE TRAVEL OUT OF ME HOW I USED TO RAMBLE SOMETHING TOOK THE RAMBLE OUT OF ME MAN I USED TO ROAM SOMETHING TOOK THE ROAMING OUT OF ME BOY I USED TO WANDER SOMETHING TOOK THE WANDER OUT OF ME NOW I’M HAPPY AT HOME Chorus: SOME THINGS ARE LOST OR MISSING THEY’VE ALREADY BEEN REPLACED EMPTINESS AND DISAPPEARANCE ALSO COME AND GO THAT WAY SOMETHING TOOK THE GUITAR OUT OF ME HOW I USED TO HIGH NOTE SOMETHING TOOK THE HIGH NOTE OUT OF ME MAN I USED TO SPACE SOMETHING TOOK THE SPACY OUT OF ME HOW I USED TO FREE FORM SOMETHING TOOK THE FREE FORM OUT OF ME NOW I MOSTLY PLAY THE BASS CHORUS Bridge: ALWAYS DISAPPEARING NEVER GET COMFORTABLE OPEN HAND WILL EMPTY OPEN HEART GETS FULL SOMETHING TOOK THE RUMBLE OUT OF ME HOW I USED TO THUNDER SOMETHING TOOK THE THUNDER OUT OF ME MAN I USED TO BOOM SOMETHING TOOK THE BOOMING OUT OF ME GIRL I USED TO RAIN DOWN SOMETHING TOOK THE RAIN DOWN OUT OF ME I SIT QUIET IN MY ROOM
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THERE OUGHT TO BE A BUZZARD FRAGRANT ROLLING PLAINS OF SAGE A SHADOW BUTTE, DISTORTING IN THE DISTANCE THE BURNING SUN’S FIERY RAGE Chorus: BUT IT’S JUST THIS DANDELION DESERT SURROUNDED BY THE BACKYARD FENCE RAIN FILLS UP THE SKY, STILL MY MOUTH IS DRY THIS DUSTY EMPTY FEELING MAKES NO SENSE THERE OUGHT TO BE A RATTLER SNAKING ‘CROSS THE ALKALI SAGUARO CRUCIFIX, BITTER SCORPION A DESPERATE COWBOY SHOULD CRAWL BY CHORUS THE SUN FOR THE BALL OF FIRE THAT IS MY BABY THE SAGE FOR THE POWER WE CAN’T SEE THE RATTLESNAKE – IT’S FOR THE POISON THE CRAWLING COWBOY – OUGHT TO BE ME CHORUS
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Chorus: DIDN'T YOU KNOW HE WASN'T THE ONE WHEN YOU STARTED TO FALL YOU WERE JUST SO BENT TO HAVE FUN AND NOW YOU HAVE NOTHIN' AT ALL YOU OUGHTA SHOOT AT SOMETHING THAT'S STILL WHEN YOU FIRE AGAIN DIDN'T YOU KNOW YOU COULDN'T KILL EVERY ONE OF THOSE MEN (4x) Verse: MR. GOTTA KEEP MOVIN' MR. I GOTTA BE THE BOSS MR. SAID HE'D CALL MR. I GOT LOST MR. FANCY CAR MR. HIDEAWAY MR. CAN'T DO NOTHING MR. HE'S TOO BUSY TO STAY CHORUS INTRO Verse: MR. HAS NO FEELINGS MR. I'LL TRY TO BE GOOD MR. STILL A BOY MR. I KNOW I SHOULD MR. HAD TOO MUCH MR. NOT TODAY MR. CAN”T STOP TALKING MR. HE'S GOT NOTHING TO SAY CHORUS INTRO
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Lyin' Low 04:35
SILENT MORNING, DREAM THROTTLES DOWN YOU RISE AND SURVEY YOUR QUIET TOWN YOU CLIMB A HILL AND YOU GATHER WORDS THEN YOU’RE AWARE OF SOUNDS YOU’VE NEVER HEARD chorus LYIN’ LOW SOME KIND OF GHOST LYIN’ LOW AND ALL YOU KNOW’S THAT YOU’RE LYIN’ LOW STANDING TALL THEN YOU HAD TO GO… AND NOW YOU’RE LYIN’ LOW ALL YOUR PEOPLE, EVERY WOMAN AND MAN KNEW WHERE TO FIND YOUR HEART AND YOUR HAND ACROSS THEIR WATER, THERE WAS THUNDER YOU WERE A NAVY, UNTIL YOU WENT UNDER CHORUS Bridge NOT AT ALL LIKE THAT RAINY DAY COMFORT KNOWING YOU’LL BE DRY NOT AT ALL LIKE THOSE EARLY YEARS IT WAS ENOUGH TO JUST KEEP ASKING WHY A LITTLE LIKE THAT TIME YOUR BROTHER WRECKED YOUR RIG AND ALMOST DIED VERY MUCH LIKE THAT MANSION ON THE BEACH DISAPPEARING UNDER THE TIDE…. NOW LISTEN TO THE VOICES FROM BELOW CALLING OUT THE NAMES THAT THEY KNOW CLIMB THE FACE OF THE CLOCK INTO THE DAWN AND IF YOU’RE LUCKY YOU MAY GET TO GO ON CHORUS
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THE MAN BEHIND THE MOTORMAN, RIDING LATE AT NIGHT HALF AWARE OF ALL OF US, HALF A DRINK TOO TIGHT ONE EYE OPEN, ONE EYE CLOSED, FINGERING HIS OLD TWEED COAT BIG BLUE SPARK POPS OFF THE WIRE FLASHES THROUGH HIS REVERIE SHOWING HIM THE TUNNEL SIDES BIG BLUE SPARK - MOMENTARILY THE MOTORMAN RIDES STARING HARD AT WHAT LIES AHEAD GOES PAST A TRAIN GOING THE OTHER WAY, VAGUELY NODS HIS HEAD WORKS THE THROTTLE, FLICKS A SWITCH, 600 VOLTS MAKE HIM RICH BIG BLUE SPARK SINGS OFF THE WIRE ABOVE HIS TRAIN, FLYING FREE LIGHTS THE TUNNEL FOR A SECOND BIG BLUE SPARK - ELECTRICITY THE MOTORMAN AND THE GUY BEHIND HIM, THEY GO FLASHING BY I'M GOING WHERE THEY JUST CAME FROM, MY TRAIN IS MAKING TIME SWITCHING THROUGH THE UNDERGROUND, FAR BELOW THE PULSING TOWN BIG BLUE SPARK CRACKS OFF THE WIRE POWER SURGING, BLINDING ME HEADING HOME I CLOSE MY EYES - IMAGE OF THE MOTORMAN, THE TWEED COAT GUY, THE BIG BLUE SPARK AND SUBWAY SYMMETRY
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1952, HER LEGS KNEW WHAT TO DO THE BUS FROM KANSAS CITY, WAS LONG NOT VERY PRETTY A ROOM WITH ANOTHER GIRL, AUDITIONS FOR THE WORLD THE PHONE RANG BY HER BED, RADIO CITY SAID.. chorus: SUSIE WAS A ROCKETTE SHE KICKED ‘EM HIGH BOYS, SHE WAS SET OLD MANHATTAN JUST MADE HER WET SUSIE WAS A ROCKETTE SKIP TO ’61, SUSIE AND HER SON ON THE TRAIN HE HOLDS HER HAND, AT THE MUSEUM HE’S HER LITTLE MAN THEY STAND IN FRONT OF A MISTY DANCER, SHE REMEMBERS WHEN THERE WAS NO ANSWER BACK ON THE STREET HE SETS THE PACE, POWDERED SUGAR ON HIS FACE CHORUS A NIGHT IN ’56, BACKSTAGE SHE HAD HER PICK SHE WAS ATTRACTED TO JOHNNY ACE, HE HAD THAT SHADOW ON HIS FACE SHE KNEW TO FIND LOVE ANYWHERE, SHE DIDN’T KNOW HOW TO BE SCARED IN A FEW WEEKS WHEN HE DIDN’T CALL, SHE ONLY VAGUELY FELT HER NUMBER FALL CHORUS 1973, SUSIE CAME TO ME MY FATHER MARRIED HER. ME AND LEGS WE’RE LIKE BROTHERS, SURE WE’VE GOT OUR OWN WIVES NOW, WE ALL LIKE TO GO DOWNTOWN RADIO CITY STILL GIVES OUR SUSIE SOME KIND OF A THRILL..
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YOU’RE THE KIND OF GUY ALWAYS FINISHES WHAT HE STARTS BUT NOW ALL I SEE IS THE ROAD RUNNING AFTER YOUR CAR I DIDN’T THINK THAT YOU’D BE GIVING UP QUITE SO FAST JUST ANOTHER GOOD THING IN THE WORLD THAT DID NOT LAST Chorus: ANOTHER GOOD THING IN THE PAST I LOVE YOU, AND NOW I GOTTA SAY GOODBYE LOOKED PRETTY GOOD TO ONE OF US THE OTHER ONE LEFT SAYIN’ “WHAT’S ALL THE FUSS?” IT’S ALREADY GONE IF YOU HAVE TO ASK I’D LIKE TO PUT THE BLAME ON YOU AND LEAVE YOU HANGIN’ ON A HOOK BUT WHO CAN TAKE THE BLAME FOR PLAYIN’ IT BY THE BOOK I DIDN’T THINK THAT YOU’D BE GIVING UP QUITE SO FAST JUST ANOTHER GOOD THING IN THE WORLD THAT DID NOT LAST CHORUS
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WELL YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING AGAIN YOU FEEL BAD BUT YOU STEP TO THE SIDEWALK AND SEE THE STREET IS NOT SAD THE SKY SOFTLY SHIMMERS THE TREES WHISPER GREEN BUT YOU CAN’T SHAKE THAT DARKNESS YOU CAN’T SEE WHAT IT MEANS Chorus: IT’S A SIMPLE PAIN IN A COMPLEX PLACE JUST A SIMPLE PAIN IN A COMPLEX PLACE IT’S A SIMPLE PAIN IN A COMPLEX PLACE WELL THE WORLD IS NOT EASY NOR IS WHAT YOU DO YOU’RE MEASURIN’ AGAINST YESTERDAY TRYIN’ TO SEE IF YOU GREW WELL YOU FILL YOURSELF UP AND THEN YOU EMPTY BACK OUT IN THE END THERE’S NO COMFORT THEN IN CREEPS YOUR DOUBT CHORUS THERE’S A THOUSAND PLACES ONE WAY TO FEEL BAD THERE’S BILLIONS OF PEOPLE TODAY ALL FEEL THE SAME WHEN THEY’RE SAD SO THE WAY THAT YOU FEEL RIGHT NOW NO NEED TO EXPLAIN ‘CAUSE THE WORLD IS COMPLICATED SIMPLE IS YOUR PAIN
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ONE LAST BEER WENT DOWN LIKE MOTHER’S MILK HE HEARD THE BARLEY LULLABY HIS DREAM WAS WALKIN’ GOLDEN FIELDS OF SILK AND WHEN HE WOKE HIS THROAT WAS DRY Chorus FLAVORS MAY FADE BUT THE TASTE IS NEVER GONE LONG TIME AWAY WHAT YOU WANT POURS ON AND ON ONE LAST BEER TO PLAY THE RIVER TAPS LISTEN TO THE BUBBLES RISE PEELING LABELS, TWISTING CAPS IN THE DUSK THE SWALLOW FLIES CHORUS ONE LAST BEER AND GREY TURNED TO BLACK AND IN THE DARK IT CAME TO HIM YOU WANNA DROWN BUT YOU KEEP COMING BACK IF YOU CAN’T SINK YOU’LL HAVE TO SWIM CHORUS
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YOU LOST A STEP, YOU’RE NOT SURE WHERE IT’S BEEN HAPPENING FOR A WHILE, USING GALLONS TO THE MILE AND THERE’S FEAR IN THE MIRROR IN THE HALL BY THE STAIRS… Chorus: STAY RIGHT THERE BEYOND REPAIR IF DOLLARS WERE DESPAIR YOU’D BE A MILLIONAIRE YOUR WAIST IS FULL. YOUR CAR’S GOT NO GAS. TELEVISION LIGHTS THE ROOM, MIGHT AS WELL BE ON THE MOON IT’S A FEELING THAT YOU HOPE IS GONNA PASS… CHORUS / BRIDGE / INSTRUMENTAL CHORUS THE SUN IS LOW. YOUR BREATH IS HANGING COLD. SUMMER ENDED LONG AGO, THE WORLD’S TURNING AWFUL SLOW AND IT FEELS LIKE IT’S WAY TOO LATE TO GO…

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My first foray into self-digital recording. Borrowed a Boss BR-8 from Bill McDavid (thanks, Bill) and recorded the whole thing in a couple of weeks at the end of '01. Purchased the BR-8 from Bill a bit after this. The record is unmastered, but sounds great. Made 60 CD-R copies, printed up some nifty covers, traycards, and a little lyric booklet and sold or gave away all of them but one. Recently, in the fall of 2011, a friend told me that he went to listen to his copy, but it was corrupt: the disc had lost its data. Distorted, wouldn't play right. I went and listened to my copy, and...same thing!. My wife's copy...same thing! So, in the interest of archiving this thing for posterity, and for those of you who want some cool music, here it is! Thanks, Bandcamp, for the beautiful platform on which to post. Enjoy Disappearance.

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released December 31, 2001

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